This morning Kevin preached about making our spiritual life a priority.  This really is nothing new, and something I have heard and known I need to do a better job of before.  But he mentioned it isn’t about willpower.  We can’t just will ourselves to be in the Word and pray more. That will work, then fade.  We need to really feel the weight and importance of it.  We need affection.

I say so often, “I wish I had more time,” or, “I need to do a better job of this.”  But then I come home and play video games, watch tv, listen to music, play on the computer, and sleep.  No prayer, no Bible.  And it isn’t that Skyrim or ESPN is more important to me than my spiritual life.  Because it isn’t about that.  I do those things because I want to relax, to enjoy the part of my day that belongs to me.

And that is the problem, I’ve realized.  I think that I am more important than experiencing God.  I’ve been tricked into thinking that I am entitled to this relaxation time.  And doubly tricked that prayer and the Word would somehow be less relaxing and life-giving that vegging out.  This is utterly foolish and false. 

I do not do New Year’s Resolutions.  But this year I am resolute to make Christ more of a priority than I have this past year.  It probably (and by that I mean absolutely) isn’t a coincidence that the past year, of transition from college and Crusade community to the real world, has been so tough, and to be honest, terrible, and all the while I have let my relationship with Christ falter. 

There is nothing more important.  There is no higher priority.