December 2011
18 posts
If That Girl's Only Hope Is You...
Then I pray for her. Because she’s gone, baby, gone.
I have always believed that there is a right and a wrong. That things are black and white. And I guess that is why it is so tough, so frustrating when I get stuck seeing things that there seems to be no right answer to. There has to be a right. But there only seems to be a less wrong.
I think of the people who have left, who have moved on, who are gone. And the constant regret in the back of my mind is that I wish I had told them how much they really meant to me.
But then I stop and think that, maybe at the time I didn’t realize it.
And it terrifies me to think of the people in my life now I will one day regret taking for granted.
Extinct
You know, it is sad that the lesser of all evils seems to be that I just want to become addicted to some drug. I feel like letting go and numbing everything might be more productive than the alternatives. I seem so stuck and it is really getting old.
Every day comes closer to a self-imposed one-year deadline I set last year, and every day I see the spectacular failure of the things I set out to...
I Went to the Park...
“I went to the park so she wouldn’t have to clean it up.”
It’s amazing how some people can be so considerate with their moments of extreme selfishness. It is amazing that someone of real faith can be so faithless and so foolish.
I love movies that most people would consider sad. Movies that tend not to end on an unrealistically positive note. In Bruges and Up in the...
ZOOEY... you may try to fool everybody with...
thedeargrandson:
Acting all Cutie and Geeky
BUT I KNOW YOUR TRUE FORM (and what you did)
…you bitch.
Foolish
This time of year is never easy. It is a time where someone like myself may be inclined to feel incredibly alone. And thinking of this, it is the most ironic and foolish thing ever. Because this is the time of year that we celebrate Him who is Immanuel. God with us. God WITH us. We are never alone. Even when we are lonely.
Lead Me Not Into Temptation
Here is the odd thing about temptation. It sneaks up on you. I know this seems simple, but when you stop and think about it, it really is quite fascinating (and a bit horrifying). Never would any Christian say to themselves, “I want this thing more than I want Jesus,” or, “This thing is worth more than Christ.” And yet that is exactly what giving into temptation is...
No One Else Can Make Me Feel Stupid
I am really tired of letting other people dictate how I feel. I mean, I think it ought to be good that people matter to me, and even can affect me in some way. But I should never feel as bad as I have just because of something someone else says or does. I know this isn’t a major revelation or anything. I am just tired of it.
I hate that I do not write anymore. It isn’t that I...
We do not fall into or out of love. Love is not some magical hole in the ground you just stumble into. We choose to love. We work at it. It takes effort. So yes, you may stop loving someone, but it is not because some spark or feeling has mysteriously died. It is because you didn’t care enough to keep it going. You let it die.
Now What?
There is a almost perfect movie scene at the end of The Graduate, where The main character runs to a wedding to stop a girl from getting married. They run out together and get on a bus. As the movie ends, they are sitting on the back of the bus, and there is this great sense of “Now what?”
And isn’t that the thing about getting the things you want? What to do after. Are we...
Impossibly Happy
Sometimes I come to realizations in my life that seem significant. I then laugh because I assume everyone else doesn’t have to come up with these realizations, they are just common sense to them. Nonetheless, the last few weeks, and especially few days, have been packed with them.
I have realized that I do not want to kill myself nor do I want to die (I mean, I can’t wait to be in...