December 2009
27 posts
Sometimes things are so transparency, they don’t need evidential proof.
Love Actually Is All Around
A few quotes to illustrate why Love Actually is one of my favorite movies of all time:
“Enough. Enough now.”
“Daniel: Tell her that you love her.
Sam: No way! Anyway, they fly tonight.
Daniel: Even better! Sam, you’ve got nothin’ to lose, and you’ll always regret it if you don’t! I never told your mom enough. I should have told her everyday because...
Do They Know It's Christmas Time At All?
I used to care a lot more about Christmas. Mostly the gifts. I couldn’t wait, couldn’t sleep. Now I am here, it’s Christmas Eve, and I don’t really care. Maybe it is that home does not feel like home anymore. There are people I think I’d rather see, places I’d rather be. This whole season…I don’t know….it just doesn’t feel that...
O Anything, From Nothing First Create
“I understand what makes a woman think that any man is better than nothing. I’ll just never understand what makes a woman think she’s got nothing.”
This is a quote from the show Sports Night, and as soon as I heard it I loved it. Because I do understand that instinct. And while it seems to be most noticeable in women (at least to me) it is also a common thing in...
“I do not always know what to do. But I think the fact I want to please you,...”
– Old Monk
This may be my new favorite Christmas song. So...
C.S. Lewis Quote (Via John Piper and Desiring God...
Reflecting on why God put Abraham’s faith to the test by commanding him to offer his son, Lewis says,
“If God then is omniscient, he must have known what Abraham would do, without any experiment. Why then this needless torture?” But as St. Augustine points out, whatever God knew, Abraham at any rate did not know that his obedience would endure such a command until the event...
The internet knows almost everything about me. It could conceivably run most of my life. It could communicate through here, facebook, and email. It can manage my money, pay bills. It could sign me up for things I don’t want, credit cards to keep buying stuff. Theoretically technology could, if it became sentient, replace me and many people might not realize it for some time….this...
Sad
http://tinyurl.com/y9cdm2n
This is an article about NFL players and their reactions to the death of Steve McNair. McNair was a former quarterback in the NFL who was killed by his girlfriend. His wife was not aware of his affair. This article talks about many players calling their girlfriends to end things. While there is a lot of sad things here, the biggest is the fact so many of these...
Hard thing: Caring about someone.
Harder thing: Letting it show.
Hardest thing: Not knowing if they care back.
“Look again, Pidge. There’s a great big hunk of world down there, with no...”
– Tramp, Lady and the Tramp
If and when I die I want to see you cry I want to see you tear your hair, your howls of anguish fill the air I want to see you beat your breast and rent your clothes and all the rest and sobbin’, fall upon my bed. I want to know that I am dead. I want to know I’m part of you and you can’t bear me being torn away I want to see you dressed in black with red- rimmed eyes from...
Rock of Ages, Cleft for Me
Sang this at URC this morning and I loved it:
Rock of Ages, cleft for me, Let me hide myself in Thee; Let the water and the blood, From Thy wounded side which flowed, Be of sin the double cure; Save from wrath and make me pure.
Not the labor of my hands Can fulfill Thy law’s demands; Could my zeal no respite know, Could my tears forever flow, All for sin could not atone; Thou must save, and...
Few things this winter have cheered me more than...
Maudlin
“When I was a kid, oh how magic it seemed. Oh please let me sleep, it’s Christmastime.” -Pearl Jam song Let Me Sleep
I miss those days when I used to wish I could sleep so that the days would fly by until Christmas. Now I only want to sleep through it.
I miss feeling a sense of wonder, excitement, and mystery when Christmas would approach.
I miss my German Shepherd. We had...
I Thought That Guy Was Just A Carpenter; I'll...
There is a song by Chris Cornell (Side note: Chris Cornell is one of a few artists, along with Bright Eyes, The Honorary Title, The Wallflowers, Counting Crows, and Kevin Devine that I can listen to at any time, in any mood, and love….in case you cared) called “When I’m Down” with the line “I’ll only love you when I’m down. But one thing for you to keep...
It was inevitable that some Winter songs would be...
I've Been Thinking Things Over.....
…You know, thinking never got me far.
I’m getting closer. I am not lamenting the fact I will be home for Christmas. I have even decided on a few things I would like to accomplish. I am struggling in one, maybe two classes, and I am beginning to feel a bit worried. Honestly, I only need a 1.0, want a 2.0, and still might fall short. This is pathetic. I care though, which is...
Listen
I got a card in the mail today. It was sitting on my desk when I got home. It had no return address, no writing inside. There was a cute drawing of a squirrel on the front and it said “Just thinking of you makes me smile.” I honestly have no idea who sent it, but I am thankful for it. Simply because it makes me really glad to know someone thought about me, even once, when it...
Salvage Operation
Salvage:
1. To save from loss or destruction.
I am in full on salvage mode right now. Classes, grades, friendships, relationships, time, passion, hope, faith, and every other aspect of my life. All feel lost or headed that way.
I am trying desperately to salvage something from these things. Because they all matter and I do not want to see any of them destroyed and lost. The thing with...
Ugh
I am terrible at life.
I am a terrible student. I am not that great at being a Christian. I can’t focus on any one thing. My mind wanders constantly. I constantly feel like I am sick or dying. I am anxious or depressed or both at any given time. I hold very little regard for myself. I love the people I care about fiercely, all the while secretly fearing I will end up hating them. A...
One of my favorite winter songs. “December...
“How much does your life weigh? Imagine for a second that you’re carrying a...”
– Up In The Air
Gathering Twigs
I was talking to my mom today about how long the day was with work and class. I mentioned that I hate doing stuff to make money because money is so damn important to life. I told her I wished civilization would collapse so I could go out for hours gathering twigs to trade with people who want to build fires. It was a that moment I realized that I consider gathering twigs to trade for horseshoes...